Day-Dreaming!

hm... it's only a few days and soon i'll be home!! just a couple of days more to end of this rotation and then i'll be done!!! so happy... but only after i finish my exams in a week plus I guess... haha.. but oh well once you reach a pt that you're just over everything who cares rite?? that's me now!! haha...

I've been just day-dreaming since monday abt how good it'll feel when everything's over!! haha...it's bad but who cares as long as this rotation is over.. it's all good!!! haha.. back to my daydreaming..hahaha

Would You Just Tell Me???

oh well.. dunno what came into me today... have been pretty happy though i'm afraid I may simply fail my exams.. but something else is so bothering me.. i just dun understand why.. it's just so wierd.. is timing in life really that impt? sighzz... or sometimes are we just simply too greedy to even realise that certain things in life are impt yet we hope for more.. i dunnoe... i feel this sense of lost in the wilderness not knowing what to do or how to approach this thing at all.. should i go against my beliefs or should I just stick to what I strongly wanna adhere to and have failed in before... I don't know at all.. things have changed and so have i... but why so i have simply no idea.. if only you could tell me.. I'm so waiting for you to tell me the ans.. for you to tell me what is wrong.. but will you???

Don't Think Too Much??

hm... 15 days more and exams will be over.. in 8 days i would be done with daily rounds to hospitals and stuff... how cool is that?? Survived 7 weeks in total already and soon i'll be home which would be exciting... coz so many things would be happening... today i did something i never thought i'll ever do.. yet i still did it.. rather it was yest.. but who cares..1 day does it make a diff? however, sometimes u wonder whether you're just too quick in ya actions.. may have held back certain things had i known... received something at nite which made me ponder whether it was indeed the right move?? hm... it's not a matter of confidence and certainty sometimes.. i guess it's more of propriety?? but in life if we think too much of what is correct or rather what should be done, would that make life really monotonous and stagnant? Who knows?? I guess as long as you make someone who means alot to you happy you'll end up being happy... so i guess the moral of the story - DONT THINK TOO MUCH!! haha

Do You Have The Answer???

hm... it really seems like things have changed... it never was like that... or is it pple's nature?? oh well... one may say things have never changed... but things can be seen from the effort put in by each individual.. Oh well you never know.. Trust?? But if nothing's said.. what trust is there again?? You can't always base something on an imaginary feeling and thought..

Oh well.. is it wrong to test the depth of something dear to you? Or is it worth plunging into it straight away and finding out the ugly side of things.. but if u plunge then u may not realise that ugly side yeah?? but if u wait things on the other hand may change and result in things you wished did not happen.. And then when you try to pin-point it at something u just can't.. maybe partly u cant bear to.. And then when is it time to let go?? you ask yourself??? But you'll never know.. if it's still pleasant though it was more in the past.. would you hold on to the past?? or would you move on with life and accept the present??

Is insecurity not a form of trust then? Who knows? it's different...it just is.. it's not within terms of explanation but what can you do?? Is everything a subtle indication then?? Or has it failed the test?? Or can one simply just feel over-sensitive over nothing?? I dunno... and maybe hopefully i'll find out soon... Sometimes u wonder whether certain statements are hints that you just din get or you simply chose to ignore.. and now the actions seem to fit those words and hence you take them so negatively.. so is it really true? I guess only time will tell....

But I guess there comes a time you'll be too tired to guess or to think for that matter.. u jsut wanna noe wat has happened?? or rather you just wanna noe what will happen....

Why Am I So Exhausted!?!?!?!?!

oh man.. why am i so tired.. i seriously dun understand... haha .. someone tell me.. i'm so exhausted and it's just amazing how much energy i have left!!! oh well.. maybe i'm just doing too much... over stretching myself... sighzzz too bad... it's time now to HANG ON!!! haha.. nearly to the end... so just hafta hang in there and hopefully things will be much better after this....i have seriously NEVER been this tired.. i'm so JUST OVER IT!!! hahaa... I NEED THAT BREAK URGENTLY!! haha... can feel my body just about to break down already!!! haha...

God Will Always Answer Your Prayers!

a De Ja Vu...

hm.. it really seems like history is repeating itself... everything that happened one yr ago.. to be exact one yr minus one mth ago.. seems to be repeating the story all over again.. it's so wierd... i guess i have the answer then if it seems the same.. i dunnoe.. i guess the most impt now is to just conc on what I have to conc on the most.. and besides that... just go with the flow.. i dunnoe.. maybe i'm sure tired.. but who noes.. oh well..

You Indeed Have GREAT Power...

haha.. some pple really indeed know how to give me the creeps... hahaa... thank gdness it's long over.... haha indeed it's not ez to make me feel so agitated abt someone.. someone really powerful (sense the sarcasm there??) has indeed succeeded.. feel so stupid only having found out like 1 over year later... haha.. feel like a total fool!!! but too bad... only after finding out.. i feel insulted and horrid.. you are indeed the best.. muahahhaa...

oh well at least i can still laugh abt it.. but it's the actions of someone that make one completely have a sense of contempt and disbelief.. the things pple can do.. oh well not tt i'm perfect or anything.. but for gdness sakes.. I think pple should know some basic respect!!! hahahaha... oh well i'm not mad i guess.. since i can still laugh abt it.. but it just disgusts you what some ppl can do.. but then again.. it's better to have found out earlier than later!! hahaa...

Sighzzzz...

So so so so so tired... is it just surgery... hm.. I have seriously no idea... kinda tired just wanna finish and go home asap.. haha.. looking forward to the easter break and how i can simply sit and relax a little haha.. though i guess a minimal amt of studying needs to be done for sure... haha.. but for now.. nope! haha... can't believe 5 weeks have simply just passed like tt... it's amazingly fast... soon surgery will be over and it'll be medicine.. another hell one haha... but then again this yr is the true true hell yr apparently.. That's what everyone says (even docs say it themselves haha)... coz 4th yr is simply the worse yr of all.. haha.... i guess all u can do is hang on in times of desparation.. oh well it's not tt bad.. i'm enjoying it besides the exams i guess hahaha... stressful exams which everyone hates hates hates.. haha...