The Crossroads

hm... it's been a refreshing new life since my last blog. I haven't touched blogging for at least a yr - or more even. Good or bad? I really have no clue. All i know is that if a problem arises, escapism is not the answer. But on the other hand, there is no certainty in life. A decision may not be executed or the unexpected may pose an entirely new problem. Whatever it is, that is life.

A or B - I so wished it is that easy to choose. Sometimes, you wonder - is there something else holding you back from making a decision? Or maybe it's just denial. If the world did not have a multitude of greyness between black and white, I would not be caught in this wilderness.

Life changing decisions are not only an expected but a necessity at times. You can't always have the best of both worlds I guess. That's the irony of it all. Will you change your life if you're so enjoying it now? Or will you hang on to the dreams of the perfect mission impossible? Sometimes I really wonder where all these will lead to in this intersection of my life. I guess only time will tell....

Now you understand why the return of my silent blog is not a very good sign. It's once again an unresolvable problem/mystery of my life which for now still remains an enormous question mark....

a lengthened revisit..

it's been ages since i last blogged. but i have been so busy, time seems to fly every minute, every second that it's just so unbelievable. 2 weeks already into my very final semester. it's so not funny as i feel that i'm so inadequate with the knowledge and skills. yet, after 4.5yrs of pracs and studying i just have had enough. don't really know what i want. but under all these stressers lie a warm and caring family that i'm read to return to after 5 yrs. maybe not immediately but definitely within the next 1.5 years. yeah, sometimes unfortunate incidents make one realise the more important aspects of life than just oneself. and that many a times a little stain for a full parcel is any time better than a missing piece of that parcel. misunderstandings are unavoidable in families but what's most important is tolerance. sometimes even voicing out one's opinions to others are better than keeping it within resulting in a deeper and deeper misunderstanding.

back for a night in the good old notts.

hm... this weekend was such an awesome weekend.. though i prob put on an extra stone.. but it was GREAT.. food rather binging was just awesome around with friends of course.. :) it was like a food spree.. for once 4 gals down the mainstreets of a city NOT shopping for ONCE... BUT eating and drinking and drinking and eating.. whatever it is.. we had GREAT fun and at the christmas markets and the many cafes where we obviously made a din which definitely wasn't pleasant for the retirees who probably preferred some peace and tranquility..

everything except one was good... my phone!!! for some odd reason i have NO luck with phones this whole week... left my phone and charger in london.. couldnt get hold on anyone... thank goodness true friends existed.. but oh man.. you realise how dependent you are on phones.. how did we ever survive in the past man? it's just unbelievable.. hahaha... but yup in germany there was very BAD reception.. in uk.. i've no phone.. who would believe this.. hahaa.. but yeh.. it's not only the phone.. it's the pple i miss talking to without my phone :( sighzzzzz.... soonish hopefully i can talk again heehee

anyway.. enough crapping... for now i'm looking forward to mom and our little holiday together... and then it'll officially be the start of my FINAL year in medical school!!!! hahaha.. so can't wait.. :) although i'll prob miss notts... starting to feel the nostalgia that fills the air...

gd luck for tom!!!

oh man... this is my WORSE exam ever.. haha i completely have no motivation to study at all!!! how bad is that... 2 weeks before exams i actually went on holiday away to spain!! hahaha... it was fun shopping at zara obviously... but not fun when u had to come back and stare at your books realising how much you just didn't know... it's hell when you wanna do everything else except study.. oh well.. i can't wait for these 11 days to be over and my 4th year barrier is OVER!!! arghzzz.. so can't wait can't wait... i just suddenly feel like going home and do nothing.. seriously just sit down at home and do nothing.. why? i have no idea.. it's prob a sign of aging i must say... hahaa...but then again i can't wait to see mom and my little bro in a couple of weeks!!! miss them so much..

anyways... newie pple, i know you'll all having exams in a couple of hours.. jia you ok?!?! i know you all can do it!!! gambate!!! and we're all nearly coming to the end of the race..luv u all...

exam fever...

oh man.. exams are coming.. but this is so bad.. just so feel as if i'm still on a holiday... hahha.... well not becoz my beloved bro commented on my blog, i would have totally forgotten abt my blog.. haha.. only goes to show how much i'm loving this place or holiday rather.. haha... the holiday will stretch after exams!! yohoo!!! all planned.. hehe.. so miss home and so many people at home...luv you all.... surprisingly i actually miss newie too esp my wonderful friends there..

but i dun really wanna go back.. coz i'll have to go straight back to school... sighzz... hopefully it'll be a better year even... so enjoying myself now... prob one of the best periods ever.. wonder whether it is a new environment feeling making it feel like a holiday or simply that i really enjoy peads and O&G.. but they are cool rotations... my future aspirations.. hahaha...*cross fingers*.. though they prob wouldnt want me...

excited to go off to barcelona for the weekend.. hehehe... it's prob the first exams i seriously do NOT feel as if i'm having one.. sounds bad doesnt it... but i really really need to PASS!!! :( it's so horrid 4th yr.. u just dun wanna repeat it.. come on.. it's my FINAL FORMAL exam in 4th yr.. i better do it... and i must do it...

but then again i dun wanna work at all.. hehee... sch life is so fun... no responsibilities really and just take it day by day... except for exams obviously... but in less than a year (if everything goes well *touch wood*) we'll all have finished with medical school.. how scary is that...

Never Say Never

oh man.. the word never is a curse.. hahhaa.. the more nevers u tink there will ever be... there will be more of it.. hahha.. oh well... i'm on exchange.. so enjoying myself.. but tiring as well.. sighzzz i need a break a true break from school!!! hahhaa.. exchange is definitely not a break.. not a break at all!!! hehee.. not for med school at least.. i have no holiday except one long weekend public holiday... hahhaa... and working every single day is indeed really really tiring... i'm nearly worn out.. how i wished 4th year is over and supposedly 5th yr with no exams will be a better yr.. but then again the grass is always greener on the other side so i'm not hoping for too much realli hehe.. except to pray that things will onli get better... but things are good from another perspective.. enjoying my time in the UK except the study bit obviously... hehe and my firm's really really nice that helps heaps i must say... travelling around is going to be cool!!! but do i have the time?? as it is i'm already so tired.. haha.. so we'll have to work that out a little.. hahaha... but make time i guess??? hahaa.. just worried about exams i guess coz it's kinda diff and being on exchange makes u lazy for some reason it makes u tink u're on a holiday.. haha.. am i??? hm.. maybe i've always been.. haha my consultant calls me a nomad having travelled equatorial to south to north just to study.. but it's fun!!! u get to meet pple... get to adapt to new cultures as well as to expose yaself to the most exotic things on earth.. oh well.. who cares as long as i'm enjoying myself hahahaha....

oh man.. i'm DAY DREAMING!!

haha.. it's so good to have to day dream.. hm.. been quite sometime since i last blogged i tink.. not tt long.. but long enuf i guess hahaha.... was so stressed recently.. which is good i guess no time at all to tink of ANYTHING!!! hahaha.. which is SO GOOD!! and now that the long cases and VIVAs are over.. it's time for just simply the writtens - the worse part of the exams.. ahha... but oh well.. at least one part is done.. it's just the remainder.. hehe.. hopefully everything goes well and then i can head off to UK for the rest of this yr.. pretty exciting i must say.. exciting till the extent i CAN'T seem to study... haha.. planning my trips.... even weekend trips to nearby cities.. hehe... must make use of the time and try to see as much and experience as much!!! hahahaha..... but if you dun do it now.. when can u do it?? oh well... i guess that's so true hahaha.... but for now i guess i need that energy to finish my exams.. TRY to study and then i can GO GO GO GO HOME!!! and then GO GO GO GO GO GO travelling hahahaha.... so looking forward to that.. hehe...